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Most of my life, I've never thought i wanted kids cause I barely wanted friends. Looking at relationships I had, which isn't many, just 3.

All long term, but only 1 mentioned wanting kids. She did for a time, open me to it but infidelity on her part led to our relationship ending a little shy of a year.

Now as I try to pave a path forward for myself, I still have to juggle with the problem that male CF patients born in the late 1990s only live 40, maybe 45 years. And I'm 26 now, and way behind the curve to due bad decisions I've made in my life.

This combined with my status as being single makes children a laughable proposition. I can't imagine myself ever ready to handle responsibilities of being a parent. My longevity is a serious consideration as well as me being behind in life.

So I'm gonna lean towards best case scenario, I've got a wife with me when my time ends. And that is what I want most, a spouse. But what my last relationship proved is I'm somewhat amenable, if I love the woman. In that this children issue would not turn into some ultimatum.

I know better than to do something that moronic when the relationship is that special. I'd just have to allow our motivation for eachother to succeed to get me to where I feel ready to take that next step. Do you want kids?

I keep thinking about this.

My ex spent a lot of time and energy getting me to like her which I resisted at first. But then I fell for her and I showed her love in the ways I did like planning out thought out dates for her, getting her things which I thought she’d like whenever I saw anything on trips away and planning special things for her birthday. After a while, she occasionally dropped hints that she wanted me to show love by telling her I like her and that I think about her and she wants more of my attention and she sighed when I did things I don’t like (like go on my phone sometimes when I was with her) but she never said anything about thinking about ending the relationship or that it was affecting her a lot. Then she went away for a couple of weeks then she went silent then when I messaged, she was saying things like we’ll find a time to get together. Then she said she wanted a chat. I asked if everything’s ok and she said yeah, just wants to catch up. Then she seemed normal and had a chat with me about unrelated things then after some time out of nowhere towards the end of our catchup she said she’s starting to feel we’ve become more like friends recently and that she’d been thinking that for about a month. She said she’d discussed it with friends who said if she feels that way after a year it might be time to leave then she said she doesn’t see a future together but genuinely wants to stay friends. I had an inkling this was the case when she stopped messaging during and after her trip. 6 weeks on she keeps messaging me even if my responses are brief.

but I still feel confused, betrayed, angry and sad. And I don’t know how I should feel.