Can you explain these fantasies?

[Anonymous]

Brief background: Jealous attention seeking acquaintaince (L) who has a boyfriend, has been manipulating my life at uni so I don't meet hot girls, such as her mentor in the year above (V). V is a pretty (an 8/10) and nice person, popular and someone who is totally someone I would want to meet! L neglected to mention her (why?) and when others suggested that V is a girl I should meet (possibly to ask out) and for L to introduce, L swiftly changed the subject and declared V not my type. I do not find L attractive personality wise, and at most she is a 5 on looks. L also has sucked her finger at me, which I somehow keep thinking about. I recently met V by luck and she is truly nice. Continued from a previous question! So I had a few fantasies about L and was wondering why? 1. I'm dating V. She finds me so sweet and caring, and grateful for me fulfilling her fantasy, wants to reward me. I have defriended L and V does not know about her behavior. Discussing me, L manipulates V into letting me have a girl "he can fantasize about and bang as well". V had a different girl in mind, but L ensures she is away and so L is chosen instead. V introduces me to L, who pretends we've only met once before. V tells me that I can use either of them to fulfill my desires in the future. I am unsure what to do, but as the 3 some starts, start to enjoy it. V and L are kissing each other and then both give me head and it is incredible. V is really good as always, but suddenly L is intoxicatingly hot. Loads of eye contact and whilst I love when both suck me, it's hottest when L is doing it. L encourages me to have sex with V whilst I suck on L's breasts. V is more toned, but L has a dirtier face and breasts? I cum on both their faces and enjoy it. 2. After (1), whilst V is away on an exchange, L seduces me and starts sucking on her finger, grinding on me. When I object, she tells me that I have V's permission remember? And as she starts to suck, I can't help but enjoy L's sucking?

[margarida]

L is manipulative and probably insecure, but she also knows how good she is in other aspects (in this case, in bed). She knows how powerful she is sexually and she uses it to her advantage because that was the only way she could manage to have a part of you, knowing that you weren't interested in her at all because well, personality wise and looks she isn't that great.

V sounds sweet and obviously wants to keep you. She doesn't want L to take you away just because she's hotter when it comes to sex. Fantasizing about L means she arouses you, she is good at what she does when it comes to sex, she knows how to play you, how to make you think you want her by manipulating you with sex. This is incredibly selfish and awful behavior. You fantasize about her because, in a way, your mind is being manipulated to think she is the best partner in bed.

But you like V. V is a good person and the one you actually like to be with and spend time with. L doesn't care about you or your feelings. She's quite selfish. V though, she likes you. She's the one you should stick with. And I think you should really try to stop caving under L's manipulative words and actions.

Was this any help? This is just my opinion on the matter.

[Asker]

Thanks (again kudos on your great question!) for getting back. Yeah you make some great points! Ok, so L is definitely manipulative right? Thing is I didn't really look at L at all. And personally I know I don't fancy her. I fancy V and other women who I think are hotter and nice people. So is L trying to keep me as a backup or have me to fulfill her attention seeking needs? For some reason, even tho I feel very angry at her for stopping me meeting V, it's really, I mean REALLY hot to imagine HER sucking me like she sucked her finger? What do you think it means, about the fantasy of her trying to position herself higher than V during a 3some. And erm, me kinda being turned on?

[Asker]

Is the fact that I feel aroused by L the most, some deep down desire, or just manipulation (given I don't fancy her nor like her that much). And is the fact I feel this urge to cum on her with her begging for it, but don't want to cum about her for some reason (or cum for her) at the end of masturbating a sign of something? With other women and fantasies I feel happy the whole way through? Why is L trying to stop me meet V then?

I forgot to mention, there's a part 1, lol I pointed you to part 2. Would you mind checking it out? You've already been a great help, would really appreciate it as clearly you know your stuff!! The link is below:

www.girlsaskguys.com/.../q1677761-why-do-i-fantasize-about-this-female-friend-who-wronged-me

[margarida]

Yes, L is definitely a bad, manipulative person. There are many reasons she could be doing this, but none justify what she is doing. She wants you for herself. Like you said in the other question, you didn't stop her incessant talk, and some people are so needy and need such high levels of attention that one they have a little bit they think the other person must be interested. That just because you're being nice that means interest. Which, of course, doesn't. She is using you in all ways possible to fulfill her own needs of you, that without her sexual power, so to speak, she couldn't get because you have no further interest in her. Now, about your hot, and you mean REALLY hot fantasies with L. This is just a fantasy. As I said, she is very good at what she does, she knows what to do to get you aroused, to keep you sexually interested. A fantasy is a just a fantasy though, I promise. I fantasize with hot strangers sometimes, it doesn't mean a thing.

[margarida]

Furthermore, you being turned on by her being competitive is also normal. Sometimes the things we feel, or rather our brain and body, those are just instinct. You react out of pure raw and primal feelings and sensations. It has nothing to do with real emotions, it doesn't have connections to your heart. So again, it just means it's a sexual thing, a primal desire, a carnal desire. That is all it will ever be. Again, you feel aroused by L because she crawled her way into your mind, she makes you feel sexually aroused and that's it. Imagine you are animals that just go at it non-stop, they have no deep down desires, they do it just because, you know? No bigger meaning.

[margarida]

May I say, I think you are overthinking the situation. L is a bad person, I think it's safe to say. It isn't someone that deserves your friendship. And as for the last question, you don't want to come for her because in the end she's not who you want to share yourself sexually, because even though it's arousing, there are deeper connections or feelings. And as we know, sex is much better when feelings are at the root of it.

[Asker]

Thanks so much for this solid analysis. Ok so, 1. Yes I totally concur with you. L is a bad manipulative person. Like you said, I'm just being nice right, I'm not interested in her and frankly I agree as I don't consider her my friend, just someone from dorms (I don't know whether she thinks we're friends). My female friends are people who are genuinely nice people. L is not classed as one of them. I also have no interest in L's personality or her interests. So is she using me for her attention seeking, is she possibly jealous of V, who is apparently popular, was her mentor for a time, and also pretty?

[Asker]

2. So the hot, really hot fantasy is just fantasy then? I'm really confused. So is she trying to keep me as a backup? For some reason, thinking about HER sucking her finger (and me) is one of the most arousing things ever? And that time I mentioned where she put her feet on my crotch, it was awkward since it was in public, but I found myself getting horny? And erm.. even the idea of a footjob by her crops up in the mind? It seems easy to visualize her over other women, even tho I prefer those other women and think them prettier and nicer?

[Asker]

3. Ok, so her competitiveness being a turn on is normal? I don't know why, but the thought of L being sneaky in a 3some with V - trying to outdo her, suggest they wear blindfolds and then without V knowing, taking hers off and looking directly at me feels for some reason quite vivid/real and also arousing? And the fantasy seems about her for one, trying to be in a position above V (e. g. on the couch next to me over V on the floor, whispering in my ear dirtily about do I like her sucking), me actually kinda liking it and secondly L showing exceptional skills that are second to none when it comes to sucking, all based on how she seductively sucked her finger?

[Asker]

4. I know lol. Just I'm not that experienced and feel confused about this person. I think the first time thing is also playing on my mind. I totally agree, that she doesn't deserve that friendship. And yes, I also think sex is much much better, deeper, intimate and sexy when it is based on genuine feelings and a connection with someone you truly like.

[Asker]

5. I can't explain it tho... her pornstar lookalike is quite a turn on? Again, I feel very aroused, and almost try to make the good feelinglast given it being very hot, but don't feel that great about finishing to her? Should I just be relaxing and cum about her? With other women I feel it's harder to visualize, tho I fancy them more and in real life, it would be a more intimate bj/sex, but I feel very happy when cumming? Also I never imagine having sex with L. It is mainly how she rubbed her feet on me - one fantasy her being dominant and another her being submissive, and then the bj fantasy, her on her own, begging for me to cum FOR her and then the 3some, her being dominant over the other girl and seducing me with her breasts and mouth?

[Asker]

6. Thing is she has been doing several crazy things. She has interupted my conversation with girls at dorms, suddenly hugging me wearing her very tight tops. She suddenly asked me in a bar whether she could put her legs on me and then asked me about some boyfriend whether she should break up. I didn't know her that much and frankly just told her to do what she felt was right. Another time, she was talking about her and another girl at dorms, saying how she (L) was "sexually experienced". Once at a dinner, she asked whether I could move from across her to next to her so she could sit close to me. And erm.. after the feet on my crotch in a different place, given we were alone, I now imagine her giving me a footjob under the table? Once she asked me to take a picture suddenly, then proclaimed that it looked like we were about to kiss (even tho I was facing the other way?).

[Asker]

7. At that dinner with other friends (mentioned in the other question), why did she behave in such a way.. as in abrubtly say she's not his type about V. Is she jealous and of whom? I guess I have no luck in meeting V then? It's hard to meet people on that course (I only know L as she is at my dorms, sigh wish it had been V instead). Also at the same dinner, she made a bit of a cultural insult. I called her up on that, but couldn't find the words to call her up ont he V thing - out of shock. Is that why the fantasy is of her being submissive? Tho why do I seem turned on by the thought of her being "sexually experienced", a little dominant, but at the end always submissive? Thanks so much for this, I realize this is long lol, but you're truly an expert!!

[margarida]

I promise, I'm no expert!! 1. Yes, she is jealous of V. It isn't unusual for girls to envy each other, it's unhealthy, sure, but it isn't unusual. I think she's jealous that V is popular, that V is better looking and has a better personality and guys tend to like her more because of that. Guys probably like L mostly because of her sexual experience, and not much else. So of course she feels jealous, she wishes she was as great as the other girls, especially V, who seems to be someone everybody likes. And yes, she is using you. She knows she can't have you. So basically, she has you the only way she can, meaning sexually. You either break her heart or she will continue to be a constant in your life, a bad one at that, always in the middle of your relationships with other girls. I would think you don't want that despite how good your fantasies with her are.

[margarida]

I think the fact you get hornier around her, and the fantasies are hotter, is because she triggers some kind of male instinct. A feeling to dominate her, to "put her in her place", so to speak. Your fantasies are all based on her sexual actions, and not at all based on who she is. If it was some other girl, with the same arousing actions, you would still have the same response. It's not because of her. It's because of what she does. So yes, it's normal. Completely normal to be aroused by the thought of her, her actions and her sexual experience. You fantasize about her, sure, but that's all in your mind. In real life, you prefer the other girls and THAT is what matters. Real life feelings are much more important and meaningful.

[margarida]

Now, about the crazy things she's been doing. You have to realize this isn't the behavior of a healthy, nice and good person! You should distance yourself. I understand that you are someone who is extremely nice because after all of this crap you still haven't been cold or pushed her away but doesn't her behavior bother you? Aren't you sick of her coming between you and other girls? She constantly pushes you and your good will, and she keeps doing it because you don't stop her. And you don't stop her because she arouses you. And I promise you, she knows this. That's why she does it, to keep you there and for you to keep her there with you. If you don't stop her, she will continue on thinking it's perfectly fine to do all of these things.

[Asker]

I'm pretty sure you're an expert! 1. Right that makes sense. So is that why she has been steering me clear from V? And did she panic when another girl suggest L introduce me to V at that dinner? Yeah I see your point about L. I think that's true. She's ordinary otherwise, if anything she's a bad person like you said earlier. I mean I can't explain it, but tbh, yeah it's only the sexual thoughts that are hot. With V, she's actually sexy, in the sense of being attractive and good as a person.

[Asker]

So she can't have me, so L is trying to make sure no one else does? Isn't that so selfish and manipulating someone else's existence? How can she live with herself? My word, she is bad. Atm I have been acting cold toward her since the whole dinner thing about V. I have essentially defriended her, tho atm she is the only solid link I had in terms of finding V. But I guess I just have to rely on luck then? I just don't like that L gets away with this appalling behavior. Despite this, why are the fantasies about L so good and I envisage her as someone who is REALLY good at giving a bj?

[Asker]

2. That makes sense. Yeah, the fantasy is based mainly on her putting her feet on me and sucking her finger (as she did in real life). I do agree, there is an aspect of putting her in her place, as I feel it would be rude to just shout at her in life. I feel annoyed tho for letting her get away with it? I agree real life matters more, and I don't want this bad person. But at the same time, why is the fantasy of her being a little dominant and impressing me and me actually kinda liking her giving me a bj over the other girl hot?

[Asker]

3. Yes she seems very insecure, attention seeking and downright terrible, especially given she cares not for how her actions effect others. I have started distancing as mentioned earlier. Her behavior really bothers me. Her coming between me and actual nice and hot girls is irritating to say the least. I agree I want to stop her. So far tho I literally just stop talking to her, initiating any contact and put her out of my life. As you said tho, I don't know why i didn't call her up on what she said at that dinner? And why am I being turned on by someone SO MUCH even tho I don't fancy her?

[Asker]

4. What do you make of her telling me about her "Sexual experience" (her words) I mean she has an inside joke about stripping? 5. What do you make of point 5 I wrote earlier about her pornstar lookalike and about cumming about her? 6. What do you make of point 3 from earlier about L being more arousing and erm.. better in a dirty way in the fantasy? 7. Why am I hesitating or finding it difficult to stop enjoying the fantasy and why was I drawn to have her near me (and got aroused when she was?) Really appreciate this!

[Asker]

P. S. Appreciate this! Really helps, look forward to your thoughts!

[margarida]

Yes, that's why. And how can she live with herself? Well, I would suppose that's the only way she knows how to make herself happy. Ruining things for others because things aren't good for her. So yeah, you have to rely on luck with V, just be yourself and do what you'd usually do with a nice girl, it can't be too hard! About the fantasies, they are good because you have made them to be, your mind is receptive to the visual stimuli that L gave you when sucking her finger, that's all it is. The fantasy is the way it is because of how your mind sees both girls, it isn't about what you feel for them in this case. You need to remember that fantasies are something your mind makes up, therefore not real! Say it again with me, fantasies aren't real. So you have nothing to worry about when it comes to them, understood?

[margarida]

4. I literally make nothing of it. She was just trying to impress you and make you horny because we know most guys have a thing for threesomes and girl on girl. 5. What's a pornstar essentially? Someone you don't know, meaning you have no feelings for, but cum upon watching that someone doing sexual things that arouse you. That's what you're doing with L's fantasy essentially. You have no real feelings for her, you make a movie, so to speak, in your head that's sexual and arousing for you with her person on it. That is all. You're averse to coming FOR her exactly because you don't like her. 6. L is more arousing because she makes you feel more manly and dominating, I think. She's better in a dirty way because of the things she does to provoke you. 7. You don't want to stop the fantasy because it's good. Cuming is the result of it and cuming is good so basically your brain wants to keep chasing the good feeling the fantasy gives you. That's why you keep having it.

[margarida]

You want her near because the things she does arouse you, and arousal is a good feeling that your brain wants to chase and associates to her because of the fantasies you have. Stop having the fantasies or have them with someone else and you won't want her near you anymore.

[Asker]

You're wise! 1,2 & 3. Yeah she is a terrible person right? I guess luck is the way to go then. Trouble is I just don't know how to meet V. I am completely fine to do the talking, I didn't want an intro by L anyhow. As for the fantasy, I see what you mean. So it's not real, means nothing. I just don't know why it's hotter with L sucking me? Thing is tho I have a fantasy of an actual female friend who I like, and tho it's harder to visualize, it feels much better, happier, more real. I just wish I could think about her more often instead of L? 4. Yeah tbh that didn't work at the time, tho the thought of her trying to be more dominant over the other girl is a turn on during a 3some.. I keep imagining her being the best at bj's? As in very very good at it?

[Asker]

5. Good point. I mean again, with other lookalikes or other fantasies about actual female friends (i. e. not L), it's much happier and feels sexier. It's just harder to visualize. But with them I feel really happy to cum? In fact, I find it harder to hold on, as I am more excited about it? So I guess, you're right, the fact that I am averse to doing this for L, and don't find it as enjoyable means I don't like her in the way I like the other women right?

[Asker]

6. Ok, true. Tho I don't understand why she put her feet on my lap? Is that submissive or dominant.. it's partly hot to think about her being dominant over other women... also erm imagined her giving me a footjob and her being in charge as she runs her feet all over my crotch area? But yeah the thought about her being put in her place, like you mentioned earlier is hot. Is that why I partly have the urge to give her a facial? See with other women, it's a romantic fantasy, with this one, it's more about dirtiness? I kinda want to erm.. cover her face in cum? But also actually give most of my cum to V and V to tell L her own words that she (L) is not my type?

[Asker]

7. Ok I see. I mean for some reason imagined L kneeling/lying next to me at a higher level than V tho... as if trying to be more senior in the whole thing? I see your point about cumming. Again, with female friends, or sexy people who are nice, I find it better and happier and happy to cum. 8. I guess once you experience something with female friends or other women you start to visualize it more? E. g. a female friend ate a banana and frankly I found it hot and am happy to think about her vs. L?

[margarida]

1,2,3. Maybe it's harder to visualize because these nice female friends haven't given you has much visual aid to work with, per say. You have to train yourself to stop thinking about L, since you've been doing it for a while now, and your brain kind of memorized those fantasies. Stop visualizing her in any sexual way and it will at some point stop completely. 4. Just because you imagine she's good at something doesn't mean she is. Remember that this is all a fantasy of YOURS, meaning it doesn't necessarily correspond to reality. 5. Right!!! 6. She put her feet in your lap to provoke you. She is a bad person, do you actually think it's logical or that you'll ever understand such behavior? I suppose it is, yeah. Maybe that's your mind reassuring you that you actually like V, not L. Because is totally not your type. 8. Yeah, you do. Again, as I said, if you had more visual aid of your nice female friends you'd probably think about them more than L.

[Asker]

1. Yeah that's a point. Thinking of L Sucking her finger is very hot? But true there are nice and pretty female friends who I prefer. I enjoy thinking about them much more and actually managed to do that last few occasions. Feels so much better and also hot in a sexy good way? In terms of visual aid, only there radiant smile and well they were eating a banana when we were kinda alone. So yeah I loved the way that friend did that! And with her it feels hot to fantasise and cum about and indeed FOR her? 4. Yes true. I wish I had more of a visual aid or recognition in my mind of those hot and nice female friends than this bad person. It's much sexier to think of them and I get that butterfly feeling about them? 6. Yeah guess it means this is more about making L pay for being bad then, preferring V and other actually attractive women?

[Asker]

8. Ok, so try to think about them right? I mean I really love that and yeah I do find them pretty and nice. Don't really use social media that much so only when I see them kinda thing. But again feel so happy when thinking of these other two female friends! How to keep it up and L out?

[margarida]

Easy, just limit yourself to fantasies with anyone that isn't L. You basically answered your other questions yourself.

[Asker]

Good point! Ok, I mean I have been doing that and feel a lot better overall! Tbh I like these other women and it feels much sexier to think about them. Thing is occasionally the thought of L or her pornstar lookalike keeps offering itself to be explored or thought about? Should I enjoy it or just continue to forget it?

[margarida]

Forget it!!!

[Asker]

I know. I want to and have enjoyed other women in fantasies. It's just a tiny part keeps putting the thought into my mind, though now I don't pursue it... does it mean anything if I did about L? I haven't so far, and what does it mean that I prefer and feel happy at the end when thinking of the other women?

[margarida]

Honey, you really need to not think this much. Live a little!! Try and not think things until they don't make sense anymore. You keep asking the same questions and they're so little, they are literally things you needn't worry about. So give yourself some rest!

[Asker]

Got it, thanks!

[ShaunaM95]

So you're wondering why you have these fantasies? Probably because L has been manipulating you from the start so she may have put the idea into your head in the first place. Also because you've been thinking about her so much is another reason she's in the fantasies. If you dislike L, then that's all these fantasies are going to be. Just fantasies.

[Asker]

Thanks for getting back to me! I knew you knew your stuff! =) That's an interesting point. Did you see the other thread? (Please feel free to opine on it) So you're saying L wanted me to think about her.. cos I was one of the only people who didn't? Thing is I prefer other women, finding them more attractive and nicer people. But it seems very easy to visualize L and extremely, as in extremely arousing to fantasize about her. Erm.. I kinda imagine her pornstar lookalike as her giving me head and it's so hot? What does this mean? And what do you make of each of the fantasies above?

[ShaunaM95]

I wouldn't say L wants you to think about her but I think the reason you do think of her is because she's been manipulating you. But at the same time she could very well want you to fantasize about her, it's only really her that knows the answer to that. It all just means you find her sexually attractive. Whereas, you find V more of a girl you can settle down with, kind of the 'girl next door' kind of thing. The same with the fantasies, both of them are in your fantasies because you are attracted to both, but in different ways.

[Asker]

Ah now that's a good point! So L has been manipulating me right? Why did she do that thing at the dinner.. I feel so annoyed at her for interfering with me meeting V? Could you clarify what specifically has made me fantasize about her and why it is so so hot for some reason? Do I find L sexually attractive tho? I mean I never thought about her before this. I don't really think she is hot either? Nor do I fancy her. V I fancy. Yes the latter is relationship material, but I also think she is sexy. With other girls, I feel happy to fantasize, even the nice ones. With L, it's so hot tho? As in it's crazy how aroused the thought of HER giving me a bj is?

[Asker]

Thoughts?

[Asker]

Pls explain your attraction theory?

[Asker]

Thoughts pls?

[Gigglebytes]

Well, that was an absolute mindfuckO_o I couldn't keep track of any of those Ls and Vs

[Asker]

Sorry, should probably check this out first! www.girlsaskguys.com/.../q1677761-why-do-i-fantasize-about-this-female-friend-who-wronged-me

A bit long, but worth it, believe me!

Would appreciate your thoughts?

[Gigglebytes]

It seems to me that you're conflicted between the girl you actually like, and the girl who is showing the attention you really crave.

[Asker]

Interesting point. But who is who? I like V. L is someone I know, supposed to be a friend, but so attention seeking. Did you see the other thread description of her? She's really irritating in that sense. And I do not like her. Nor does she seem to coming onto me completely. She has a boyfriend, yet flirts with me 50% of the way to keep my attention on her is that not so? Thoughts?

[Gigglebytes]

This isn't days of our lives so dont make it more complicated than it has to be. Assert "your" feelings on the matter and make a decision as to what you want. If you like it when L flirts with you then go with it. If you want to fuck a girl, then be direct and confident in what you want and accept the answer given.

[Asker]

I know. But then why is L behaving in that way? She stops me meeting other girls on her course. She has a boyfriend. But she is being suggestive (finger sucking, wants to sit next to me, feet on lap). At the same time, I didn't feel anything to attract me to her, plus she's such an attention seeker. But now, I keep fantasizing about her sucking her finger... and erm.. then me? Why is this? Also I didn't know what to say when she said the whole "not his type" thing? I never imagine fucking L, only the bj? But it's the hottest fantasy I have for some reason... HER sucking me off? What do you make of what she did and why? And what should I do? And why the fantasy?

[Gigglebytes]

I think L is just a little tart who likes to toy with guys. You seem timid and indecisive, which is probably why she singled you out. She's entertained by making you uncomfortable. As to what you should, you're the only one who can answer that question. And the fantasy, well, who knows. It's you're head, so I ant tell you why you think what you do. But if it makes you horny, you can bet it'll keep coming up. Pun intented😄

[Asker]

Lol a tart? Clarify pls? She's very attention seeking. I don't think she is attractive personally. I find other girls so much prettier. Don't know why it's incredibly arousing to think about HER sucking me off? It gets me harder than anything for some reason? But I really don't like to cum about her as it feels like she wins? Or should I just relax and enjoy it and cum about her? It doesn't mean anything right? As for what she is doing.. isn't it wrong given she has a bf? Is it natural for me to get turned on when she sucks her finger? Personally I never imagine having intercourse with her, only her giving me a bj/footjob too. I don't want to date someone like that or sleep with her in life - I'd feel degraded. Whereas with V or other pretty girls, I imagine/fap about them and cum happily? Thoughts?

[Asker]

Thoughts?

[Asker]

Did you check out the link? Might be clearer.

[Asker]

@HandsomeRaj Can you check this question out please?

[Asker]

@HandsomeRaj Could you help me out please?

[Asker]

@Paris13 thoughts?

[HandsomeRaj]

@Asker I will my friend in this week. Situation is that as I mentioned in my message to you that I have to actually recreate your question and subsequent comments on a separate platform and then put 2 and 2 together lest I goof up in answering. A few more days this week and I'll be on - thank you for understanding and your patience :) @Gigglebytes apologies for using your opinion as a platform to revert :)

[detlef]

It's cool that you're able to explain your fantasies in such detail! :) At the same time, I think the most important question is, what would you (as the main person affected) stand to gain from even a highly cogent explanation of these fantasies, even if you yourself produced it? And my own answer to that question would be: You don't stand to gain much at all, unless that understanding somehow informed your actual romantic life. But your real life interactions would likely be quite different.

Which brings me to my answer to your other question. :) Good luck with these chicks man.

[Asker]

Thanks. Thing is I keep imagining L trying to outdo her mentor V in giving me a bj. Also her trying to be/kneel at a higher level than V during the double bj.. as in her on the couch, V on the floor. Even tho I fancy V, I seem to find L's bj skills so hot? I mean, I'm wondering why the fantasies.. especially about L, given I don't like her, nor do I approve of her terrible behavior and the attention seeking and the blocking me meeting V? It would really help to inform me, so hope to hear your thoughts? =)

[Asker]

Thoughts?

[Asker]

So just enjoy the fantasy or continue to ignore and fantasize about others?