I seriously regret doing porn with both women and men. Now what?

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I started doing gay porn because i was desperate for money. I am a very materialistic person and so i went into it. After about 50 scenes i started doing straight porn as well, i ended up making over 500 scenes, most were homosexual tough. I do not feel ashamed of it as i am bisexual myself but i just HATE it looking back, I DID NOT WHAT I WANTED in those films, i was TOLD what to do and i hated that because i could not express myself sexually. I am dating and i have a girlfriend for a few weeks, but i just don't like my past. I think it's strange. Literally no one knows about this. I was diagnosed with NPD as well recently and i feel it is taking the better of me, as i am more careless and very self centered.

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Chico_brah Yoda
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Congrats. You did gay for pay and now you regret it. You will probabaly get shit for it for the rest of your life. Stop acting like a pansy and take responsibility for your actions.
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- Asker
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  HOW? what matters is how I FEEL. I did enjoy SOME of it. But not all.
- Chico_brah
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  Stop talking about your feelings so much bruv.
- Asker
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  Why?
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- Chico_brah
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  Because you're acting like a complete pussy and it's cringe.
- Asker
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  So what? how is that bad? men are HUMAN and emotions are part of who we are, you are seriously deluded.
- Chico_brah
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  I'm not an overdramatic emotional girl who needs to talk about my feelings as if it's a matter of life or death. That's not delusion.
- Asker
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  You have offered absolutely NO help whatsoever, WHAT IS THE POINT of your comment?
- Asker
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  I do not care what you think, you are just sexist and offering no help whatsoever. I DO NOT need any comments from you.
- Chico_brah
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  @rgb008 I think I triggered one. Do you have any advice for the OP?
- rgb008
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  Yeah he triggered
- Chico_brah
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  @rgb008 Is OP gon make it?
- Asker
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  I AM NOT triggered, i am simply being honest and making things clear for you. If that is a problem for you then go away. @rgb008 Sorry, but i strongly believe you are a catfish. I might be wrong, but at least that's the impression i get.
- Chico_brah
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  Lmao. You're too hot rgb. Gatta be a catfish.
- rgb008
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  OMG LOL
- rgb008
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  the pic with my name wash enough? hahaha
- rgb008
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  wasn't?
- Asker
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  I already SAID that i CAN be wrong. I don't see the point in your post
- Chico_brah
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  Well I DON'T see the point in THIS post EITHER. But I do see a VERY valid point in SCREAMING certain words mid sentence.
- rgb008
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  I LIKE to SCREAM too!
- Asker
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  THE POINT of this post is that I NEED HELP. I asked this question to at least make me feel better by seeing peoples opinions. Obviously i encountered a 1950s Macho and his concubine.
- Asker
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  How entertaining
- Chico_brah
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  Well OP. I think the ISSUE is that you are carrying TOO much estrogen in YOUR BODY, and you HAVE been influenced by liberal MEDIA that this is the WAY men SHOULD act. You SHAME others who have CONTROL of their EMOTIONS as being MACHO MEN when they are actually just MEN. I'm going to GO AHEAD and inject 4 CC's of TESTOSTERONE cypionate into your gloot when you aren't LOOKING. You can THANK me later OP.
- rgb008
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  WELL you're going to have to LIVE with the CONCEQUENCES. You are a PORN STAR. No WOMAN ( even apparent "CONCUBINES") don't WANT a PORN STAR.
- rgb008
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  THEY DON'T* a PORN STAR
- Asker
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  Thank You but i am HAPPY the way i am. It's 2016 men can behave how they want, if you want to act like a MACHO then move to EAST. You would fit in there perfectly. They need men like you.
- Chico_brah
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  I fit in MOST PLACES I go. Most PLACES I go don't PRAISE overdramatic men WHO talk about their FEELINGS like it's a life or death SITUATION. But you DO YOU boyo. You ARE on dat dere GAY FOR PAY TIME. Yes you WILL get shit for it FROM others for a WHILE. So be prepared for THAT.
- Asker
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  Look, I DO NOT CARE if i get praised or not. I notice men like you are in the minority so i am not bothered. You must live in one of those outdated states, let me guess MISSISSIPPI? ALABAMA? entertain me. @rgb008 WHY do you think I CARE if girls like it or not? THEY DO NOT have to know. My current girlfriend is oblivious and i don't care. But that is not even the POINT of my question? i know i will have to accept the consequences BUT i need encouragement FIRST.
- Chico_brah
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  NEGATIVE OP. I live IN southern CALIFORNIA. I'm ALSO educated.. SO NO, I'm not a NEANDERTHAL. IF you NEED ENCOURAGEMENT from STrANGERS on the INTERNET to live YOUR LIFE, then you NEED to change SOMETHING.
- Asker
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  THIS post went into the wrong direction. You are over complicating things way too much. It was a simply question to see what people have to say as I AM KEEPING THIS A SECRET AS YOU WOULD KNOW IF YOU ACTUALLY READ THE DAMN QUESTION. I am so jealous of you.
- Chico_brah
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  DON't BE jelly OP. I'll GIVE you bro HUGS. Don't try any GAY FOR PAY shit on my THOUGH. I'll fuck you UP boyo.
- Asker
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  You are very educated, you are SUCH A MAN, wow!! guess what? I DO NOT GIVE A SINGLE FUCK. All you can do is pick on the WEAKER which i think speaks VOLUMES.
Yanoa_Yanza Guru
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Damn, they tell you what to do? I thought they just went at it, and acted like it was the time of their life
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- Asker
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  That is what i thought, but NO when they say you have to do something YOU DO THAT. It's shitty, i would rather be a prostitute.
- Yanoa_Yanza
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  Thank you for learning me something new. Damn I already disliked it cause they're like "UAAAAAAARGHH!!!" XD but now I dislike it even more lmao
- Asker
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  Yeah, they are basically dolls.

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Bandit74 Master
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Just don't tell anyone about it.
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Intraluminal Guru
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I'd you have NPD, then fuck what she thinks.
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- Asker
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  Sorry but what are you reading? I DO NOT CARE WHAT SHE THINGS. IT IS ABOUT ME and ONLY ME NOT HER. I need to get over this regret.
- Icyfire101
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  Fuck what she thinks? You can't fuck a thought, but you can fuck a thot 😂
- Intraluminal
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  Haha. You DO have NPD!
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- Intraluminal
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  @Icyfire101 not if you want to keep your penis you can't!
- Asker
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  I DO NOT give a fuck. How do i make myself feel better?
- Intraluminal
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  Go out and have lots of sex the way YOU like.
- Asker
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  I already DO but it is only temporal satisfaction. I have sex with both women and men and it still doesn't help.
anonman32 Guru
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too bad man.
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