I can't forgive myself for sexting?

[HelpNeeded101]

The reason I started in the first place was because I was so lonely and bored. I have no friends, my life is dull. I liked that people would be interested in me, even if it was just for pictures. I have only done it anonymously, and quite a decent amount. I remember this guy particularly. He wanted to do some bdsm for me to pretend to be 13. It went on to him telling me how fat and ugly I am. How I am worthless sl*t and all this. He took a screenshot of every picture and threatened to post on his story if I didn't send more. In this way, I felt like I couldn't stop. Several times I tried saying 'gtg' and such. But he was just calling me horrible things. I'm a sensitive person. He literally asked me to call myself worthless, fat, ugly etc. He asked me to put my hand in f*cking toilet water on video, I didn't do it. He made me send a lot of video's. Then he started with the "rape play". That is not okay, it was disgusting. Eventually he finished and told me he wouldn't delete the screenshots in case I cheated him. Disgusting. Gross. I can't forget it, and I can't forgive myself for sending more after he said he'd post on his story. I cannot forgive myself.

[btbc92]

Don't do it again. Sexting is just as fake as phone sex and you are always being watched no matter what your write in them. You shouldn't have to lose your dignity over that. I just found out after watching Maury the other day that all your snapchat photos and videos aren't really private and can be leaked to any and everybody. You still want to take that risk? I don't care if its a boyfriend or stranger, even if you get married, don't do it and your guilt, lack of forgiveness and that situation would have never happened. Don't put yourself in a situation that is against your moral beliefs and something you will regret for the rest of your life. Because in the end, you have to live with it.

[annie2016]

Don't do it again even if you posted anonymously but you make him see you as a disgusting person as he is. Just don't communicate with him anymore. Forget all about it and forgive that person and yourself then move on and find something worth to do when you are bore and lonely. If you are really 15 years old then have sometime to visit a gym or pursue something you really like as a hobby.

[Princeofanons]

How old this this person?

[HelpNeeded101]

Honestly, I couldn't answer that question for sure. I'm going to assume he's a major pedophile.

[Princeofanons]

It's best to report him to the authorities for blackmailing. He might be the same guy that eventually led to the suicide of Amanda Todd

[HelpNeeded101]

It's on snap chat though? But I guess it's best to try when you think of the next child he'll pass on the street.

[scooogy]

That's why you should never do this.

[scooogy]

Thanks for MHO :)

[ice_vampire]

Thats fucked up.