I have mixed feelings of your story. Cause one time my girlfriend of a few weeks, wanted to have sex with me after I got out of the shower. I said no cause I was really really tired from work, and I already had sex with her and came before I went to work, and just wanted to sleep. But then she got super forceful and threw me on the bed and pinned me down, and then she said in a very serious voice "i'm not going to take no for an answer, and I'm just going to rape you!". And then she started grinding on me until I was up, and then shoved me deep in her and just f***ed my brains out, until she cam a good 4 times. At first I thought omg I'm getting raped, and it was shocking and scared me at the moment, but then I totally noticed how aroused and and thrilled I was because she was doing this to me. Ever since that night, I would occasionally say no to her just so she can be really rough and forceful, and have her ways with me. I think she is beginning to notice how much I like her super aggression, so that's why now a days she's always hella rough with me in bed. So its kinda hard for me to understand how you could have not liked it when this girl "raped" you. I think it's flattering that a girl would want you bad enough to force you to have sex with her. But probably not everyone is like me, and if you really didn't like it I hope you never have to go threw that again. The reason I'm telling you all this, is maybe if you think hard and deep about it, you might have liked what she did to you. Maybe that's why you couldn't get away.