I miss my ex sexually...

[loxagos_snake]

I know that the title might sound very immature, but believe me, it's not. I broke up with my ex 4 months ago. She was my first 'serious' relationship, lasting almost two years. I share many sweet memories with her, especially since we met in school 5 years ago, had a little something, broke up, and got together again for a more serious 'round' 2 years ago, on my last year (I'm now 19 and she is 17). I still love her very much, I even made an attempt to get back with her, but it was wrong and done on a weak moment. I say it is wrong because I think that after a while we'll start fighting again and mistrusting each other. What makes things special with her is that we were each others' first sexual partner. We did everything together, and we managed to tie sex with love very well. I decided to act like an adult and move on. It's not like I can't forget her...sure, we shared so many moments and places together, that it's hard not to think of her, but I can manage since I took up on new hobbies and interests. What really tortures me at times is the sense of touching her. I was so used to her body, from hugs to intercourse, that I find it very strange to do this with another girl. I also feel like there's a huge gap since the last time we did it, a gap that leaves me wanting it one more time, yet I know that it won't do me any good. What can I do to forget this? I don't feel that going with many girls will solve it for me. Maybe temporarily, but then I will feel worse because I'm not that kind of guy...I know that if I actually fall in love with another girl, and have meaningful sex, I will forget, but who knows when I will meet her? Also, something else - specifically directed towards girls. There's this insecurity I have...when I asked my girl if she liked sex with me, she always said that I do it well and I need not worry. But sometimes -maybe I'm wrong, who knows- she seemed like she was bored. Last time we talked (when I tried to reconnect with her) I asked her straight if she had any problem with my performance and she said no. Do you think she could be lying so as not to hurt me? When in bed, I always tried my best and tried to communicate with her, so I don't know what could be wrong.

[Jonny_]

Could be that you were more emotionally tied to this girl, I've always had my best sexual experiences with the girls I've liked the most or been particularly special. Sex with someone you aren't as connected to does feel a bit odd by comparison. I'd also say that since you were used to sex with her and ergo her style... other peoples will seem less preferable. Especially if their sex drives differ by much.

[Anonymous]

Yeah, me too... I know what you mean