It sounds like you live in an oppressive setting that's so restrictive it is causing you to want to break free to such an extreme it is causing you to do reckless things. What you need is to find a healthy balance, and it sounds like your conscious knows this. You know what morality is and you know the type of person you are -> embrace that.
It would probably be healthy for you to move out and not live in a restrictive setting and be free from it, and the recklessness may decrease over time. It will just be difficult to keep it under control for the first while so you don't do anything you regret. I believe that if your conscious fears your dark side and doesn't agree with it, you should listen to your conscious! I wouldn't say embrace the darkness, you do need to accept who you are, but you need to sort out these dark traits as they show themselves one by one and figure out how to dissolve them. It will balance your life out so the true you can shine.
When people nit-pick you, ignore them. It is their own insecurities praying on someone else to make themselves feel better because nobody is perfect. That's how you build confidence.0 0 0 0I'll explain it this way: darkness can polarize itself through extremes. Living in a extreme restrictive/controlled setting is toxic, it polarizes itself by causing an extreme of you wanting freedom to the extent you do things you later regret, also toxic. The more you learn what a stable setting is, the less confused you will be on what is healthy and what is not. Emotions are not reality. For instance, if someone says your house burned down, and you believed it, yet they lied, it doesn't mean the house has burned down. So always put logic first. Your conscious, is something you generally can trust because that does stem from logic. Your feeling of boredom stems from depression and feeling powerless. Which is why doing extreme things doesn't change the feeling of boredom. You can only solve it through finding joy in your life, so even in boring situations you will enjoy simply being you.
Not wanting to fall in love may also show a lack of wanting stability, closeness, and/or openness towards an individual. This is understandable for there is much fear behind being vulnerable, and people need to grow and develop before they can hold down a relationship as such. So it would be healthiest for you to sort out your situation first before getting into a solid relationship, because otherwise your problems will become even more magnified within a close relationship and will be harder to deal with. Don't give up on what you know to be moral and as values, for this is what creates stability. If you throw this away it will cause your life to be even more confusing and you will cause harm to yourself and to others. Total democracy isn't healthy for anyone and causes societies to crumple. It is a push in North America and it is a lie! It turns to anarchy and disorder. Be true to yourself and follow what you know is right. It is a difficult path but most rewarding.
You need to see a counsellor. Never ignore a dark side. I have seen the consequences!
0 0 0 0I not any more. I love it didn't know it was so exciting
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Let's begin wtih that yes I have a similar situation like you do BUT it doesn't bother me cause I am at terms with myself and accept what I am.
If your 'dark side' is something that just pushes you to have sex randomly etc especially with those you don't particularly like; it's just probably just some kind of a rebellion inside you that probably has built up owing to certain things you experienced while growing up and/or genetic factors.
As long as your dark side doesn't want to hurt and harm others for pleasure, I won't even call it a dark side. In which case it's just a confusion between what you want and the morality lessons you've learnt and examples provided generally through religious scriptures and society.
You are what you are which is sweet, generous, kind, smart and compassionate - the other side as you term it is just a part of you and doesn't make you a bad person. So stop getting confused and be confident of who and what you are.0 0 0 0No it doesn't want to hurt others but one of it's traits is jealousy when it comes to guys, I'm not too good at hiding it really and I'm kind of too stubborn to admit I was jealous when I act kind of weird and say things and I get a bit stroppy lol. There are just things opening up in me and all these thoughts I think lately are scaring the hell out of me and I am opening up slowly in ways that currently make me sick with myself, I think how could I even consider it? what is wrong with me? lol.
At the outset pls allow me to thank you for the BA, I really apprecaite it :) ur doing it with someone you didn't find attractive, dreaming about doing it with a repulsive demon are all signs of your being stuck between what you like & want 2 do & what u've learnt about morality from society. You place 2 much importance 2 how the society etc will look at you which is why you dream of doing it wt ugly people etc ugly here symbolizes your 'morality' thoughts. Also you do it with someone you find not attractive ...
... cause you are subconsciously punishing yourself for doing something 'immoral / dirty / ugly'. Jealousy is a trait of the insecure and not so confident people & this statement generally receives bashings cause most of us are that way - just a case of majority pressure. But nothing wrong in feeling tinges of jealousy. U got to stop punishing yourself and being confused. think clear and straight - be confident of yourself and what you do - good luck :)
No. It's part of who I am. Others are because they don't really know who I am. They believe I'm good through and through. I'm not and I admit it. I can be cruel and heartless at any moment, and i do it like drinking a cup of coffee.
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0 1Your dark side is quite exciting. You don't want to stay in one place, and always want the feel of an adventure. There are a lot of guys who are like that, and they are the ones who are always pursuing success.
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