What is up with my teacher acting like this around me?

Anonymous
I have a crush on my teacher...don't say "Eww that's sick" I already now it is, so don't remind me. Well here's the story. It started in November, I went up & told him I felt like I was about to get sick. He bent down to talk to me (my really short for my age) & looked me in the eyes & asked, "Do you need to call home", right then I automatically felt better. I don't know why I just did. Then one day when he was teaching he looked at me then I licked my lips (I lick my lips a lot, I don't know why it's just a habit of mine.) then he looked away quickly & his voice cracked & his voice kept cracking the rest of the class period. He was my Civics teacher & I had him first semester. I'm 16 & he's 6 years older then me. Well in the middle of the second semester I got put in his room to take the writing test, after we we're done my friend & I we're sitting there minding our own business when he walked up. He completely ignored my friend & shoved history notes in my face (he's also a U.S history teacher) & said "Look what your going to have to do when you have me next year." I said "How do you know I'm going to have you?" He just shrugged his shoulders, looked me in the eyes then smiled. By the way, he's really shy...well he is around me at least. But anyways every morning I get to school my friends always stand by the heater in front of his classroom. Well when he gets there I always see him looking at me when he's walking down the hallway with a smile on his face. Its like that everyday. A few weeks ago I was at lunch & he was sitting outside with another teacher. They we're looking at this magazine, he looked up & turned his head & glanced at me then looked back to the magazine then smiled. I was like okay...that was weird. A few days ago I was standing my the heater & I was putting on chapstick & I looked over to where he was because one of my friends called my name & I caught him looking at me with a smile on his face. Yesterday when I was waiting for my bus he came outside to go talk with some other staff members & he looked at me then walked past me, he got really close to me when he walked past me. Then I turned & watched him walk away & I saw him rub the back of his neck, then I saw that smile again. I have no idea what to do. When he's around other teachers or other staff members he doesn't even act like he knows me, which I understand that he doesn't want to get in trouble. I really like him & I can't get him out of my head. I wouldn't EVER think about telling him cause I do DON'T want him to lose his career over me...I would feel terrible if I did that. I've also tried to get over him & find someone my own age...I've been trying to get over him for the past 5 months but I just can't move on. Please & thank you so much (:
What is up with my teacher acting like this around me?
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