Not the heartbroken girl anymore

[Veronikaid]

Recently I have been through a very difficult break up. Middle of November last year, the guy that I was dating confessed he kissed someone else. He cried, asked for my forgiveness and kept repeating how sorry he was. I tried to give him a chance, but I couldn't trust him anymore. We got into a fight and he blocked me. I was heartbroken as I have never been. I stopped eating and sleeping, lost almost 6kg in the first week. As we are in the same university and kind of have the same group of friends, I saw him everywhere. It was the kind of break ups that make your friends worried for your health.

Months kept passing and as I tried to move on, he did weird things to try to get to me: he wished me happy Christmas after weeks of not talking, he

got a new girlfriend and send a picture to one of my closest friends of them two together, he would interrupt me when I am talking to other guys, sit on the same sofa as me, come and talk to my friends when I was talking with them, bring this girlfriend to an event he knew I was coming... Oh and his girlfriend is the he cheated on me with. The same he swore "hated" and dumped to try to work it out for me. So I thought I would not be happy while he kept coming to the events, while I still was here (I am supposed to leave in July to go abroad).

But then it comes the day. The day I see him and my heart doesn't ache. The day that he comes around and all I think is that I am happy and I don't need him for that. The day that he looks at me and I feel nothing. And I thought it would never come, but now I am happy. Now I go around and smile again. Now I am my happy self again. Now I can say that even if my heart got broken and that I see him everywhere, I am happy and strong and can smile. I don't have the urge to go and have his arms around me, because I am happy by myself and can say that I have moved on. Even if in my heart there will always be place for the memories that I have with him, I am finally happy and ready to start again if somebody new and amazing comes around. Because now, I am not the heartbroken girl anymore. Just my happy self again, and I needed to share it.