My boyfriend and I had a break up last night and I thought he left me for good. I was so upset and sat outside in my front yard from 12am-1am alone. I finally messaged some of my friends asking if I could talk to them because I was so lonely and upset. The only one who answered was this guy who I used to be best friends with (we've kissed before) I thought it was alright if I saw him because this was one of the only boys my boyfriend didn't not trust. He thought he was all nice to me and respected us and I did too.. until last night. I walked to his house which took about 40 minutes and I was crying the whole time. I got there and sat down on his couch with him, still crying. He asked what was wrong and if I wanted a hug and I told him everything and we hugged. Later on, after talking and watching tv, he said, "would I be a scumbag if I kissed you?" I said yes and he apologized and we continued to talk. This was stupid of me and I should have left right then, but it was probably 3am by that time. We stayed up for a little longer but then he surprisingly kissed me and I pulled away.. The next day I wake up and go home and see 20 texts from my boyfriend who was wondering about me the whole night and spent the whole morning looking around our town for me. :( he messaged all my friends, even old ones, and called my mom and talked to her. Anyway, he got extremely angry at first, punching/cracking his windshield and everything. But he forgave me. I feel disgusted, ashamed, and he can do so much better. I can't forgive myself and I have no idea what I should do.
Somewhat cheated, he forgave me, I can't forgive myself?
What Guys Said 3
No need to get disgusted if you are true with your description.1
If its only a kiss no big deal its not like your married1
I think you were a little emotionally weak in staying there when you knew that he was coming onto you. But you did pull away. So I don't think you should feel very guilty. Just move on.0
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