Hey guys, I genuinely haven't come to ask this question out of self pity. Just looking for some friendly advice. I've been in constant relationships - from one to the next since I was 16 (now 24). Now when a girl leaves me, it sends me off the rails. I've had 6 girlfriends, and with each breakup, my breakdown gets worse. I've been abusing alcohol for a few years now, just to numb how s**t I feel about myself and my life. Even so low as to steal my mums partners car whilst heavily intoxicated with alcohol and prescription pills. More recently, stole her car aswell. I've fallen in with drug dealers and criminals. Come close to losing my job so many times its unreal. Just come off of speed amphetamine (which I was taking because I couldn't bare to sleep, knowing she still wouldn't be there) as I can no longer afford it. Now I find myself sabotaging myself and every relationship I get into. I can't face being alone.
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i think you are pushing yourself too hard to move on sometimes
like you break up and then you THINK you have processed all your feelings about it but you haven't and then you get into another relationship (which could also bring back past memories) and another break up
its like stabbing an open wound
i would recommend you get your mum and/or her partner or some of your friends (just anybody you're close to and you can trust with this) and ask them to keep eyes on you, tell them to tie you up if they have to when they see you getting self destructive. i also recommend counseling or therapy, sometimes just talking really helps. its a good sign that you wrote this btw, this is usually the hardest step of all and you took it
and like i said give yourself time to heal and go back to the balanced you again before going into another relationship.
and I don't know if you believe in god or not but if you do i promise you praying just does miracles sometimes. you just feel connected to something inside you that can bring you back balance
and this world is too big for us to face alone anyways lo