I broke up with my bf of 18 months 8 months ago due to long distance (longest and first relationship). We tried 10 months long distance after meeting in an exchange program of school. i did everything to forget him.. no contact, go out, go to concerts festivals, dont be alone, pick new hobbies, focus on myself, do sports, travel... none helped at all. we talked three times after bu and i initiated all by sending emails. he was answering quickly but i feel in a way he was trying to say dont write me i am so happy look my life is so awesome without you when he wrote me lots of details. so i completely stopped.. it has been around 4 months and a little more since our last talk. i removed all kinds of gifts, reminiscence things, photos, social media since the first day of bu. but i ve been thinking about him a lot. there is not a single day that he isn't in my mind. i think about him kissin me, our holidays, funny nights we had, funny convos, games we played.. like every detail. and i want him to come reach out me and tell me he misses me secretly i guess i dont know. but i want him back even though i know it is impossible and i do not want to humiliate myself by calling him and telling him i miss him.. therefore i want him to be unhappy and notice that i am his everything, he made a mistake.. like ridiculous thoughts in my mind.. i dont know what to do and i need any kind of help to get rid of this feeling and these awful thoughts.. please help!
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I am sorry you are in so much pain. Yes, love is tough and rejection is a killer.
Expectations are preplanned resentments. As such you need to release him, bless him and move on. He has your #, if he wanted you he would be calling you. It is just human nature to want hurt to go back to people that hurt us. We all do it, don't feel bad. When it happens don't let it rent space in your head, release it and practice mindfulness of the present.
You did good occupying yourself with healthy activities. But you need to find a new love to dedicate yourself to. Find someone that will appreciate you, worship you and commit to you if that is what you want.