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Being broken up with is extremely hurtful, damaging to a self-esteem, breaks trust, and is straight up exhausting. The fact that you've done this to her 7+ times, I wouldn't be surprised if this was her breaking point. As much as she loves you, it is an extreme emotional roller coaster to be dealing with a guy who breaks up with you at every whim. You have to realize that maybe she doesn't want to be treated like someone you can just throw away, and even if you don't mean it in that way, when you break up with her out of pure emotion, it leaves the impression that it wasn't even a difficult decision and that you don't mind being without her. If you want my opinion, just let her know that you're ready to talk and make things better, and then give her space. Let her come to you on her own. She's probably having an intense inner battle deciding whether or not she'll go back to you (or at least I would be) and if she doesn't come back, then you need to respect her decision.