We come from very different backgrounds. I'm a country girl, and he's a city guy. He currently lives in his mother's pool house which is tiny and cramped. He has a son. He really had no true goals of where he wants to be in his life, other than he wants to get married. This was not an attractive trait for me. I do not have my life on track either, due to my severe anxiety and panic attacks which hold me back. Although, I DO have dreams and goals of how to improve my life and I'm currently doing all I can to make those changes.
I just in the last couple months seem to have noticed the same things I did the first time we broke up. His constant need to be reassured that yes I loved him, yes I wanted to see him, etc. He is absolutely the sweetest most selfless person I've ever met. We just didn't seem to click anymore. I loved him, and I still do. I just don't know how to get over the fact that I hurt him again. I feel horrible. As soon as I broke up with him, last night, I felt sick. I felt instant regret but I couldn't go back because, maybe next week I'd want to break up, and that's not fair to his emotions. I was so back and forth on the idea of us breaking up that I made myself sick over the last few weeks.
last night when I ended it, he gave me my birthday present because my birthday is in a few days. It was the most perfect necklace that I would have picked out for myself. It broke my heart cuz he knows me so well. I just don't know what to do. I feel awful. I never him to get hurt