My ex broke up with me a month and a half ago. We were together for 4 months while we were away in an internship program. I fell in love with her.. however, there were trust issues from my end caused by different forms of communication. We constantly misinterpreted each others stuff and i already have issues dealing with emotions.
So one night, she decides to end it after I send her a full text saying that she’s gonna break up with me. She said that she couldn’t trust that i’d get better and she couldn’t deal with this anymore. I broke down and cried and begged…and she stormed out saying “it’s over, deal with it”. I texted her later on that night, apologizing for losing my cool and saying that I agreed with her.
That night I found this sight and began my 30 days and “healing process”.
2 weeks later, I texted her “hey”. no response, and i had to start my process again.
Keep in mind that this whole time, I was still friends with her on Facebook, tumblr, Skype and linkdin. 3 weeks later, she unfollows me on tumblr and unfriends me on Facebook
2 weeks later, I messaged her on Facebook talking about Dr. Who, a show I started watching because of her. I said “Just finished the first series of Dr. Who. Loved it :) How are you doing?” A day later, she says “You need to stop communicating with me. I don’t want to hear from you anymore. I unfriended you and if you keep this up, I will block you”. I apologized and said “block me if you want” and boom, she did.
If I know this girl, this definetly goes with the article of “indifference vs hatred”.
Some friends have even told me that before she unfriended me, she was looking at my Facebook a lot.
However, I’m officially in constant pain from this whole ordeal. I want her back and am following the steps, but the healing process is taking long and I’m losing focus on school and work. While I am working on my issues, the pain is so sooo bad. I am willing to wait and grow for myself. What should I do? Any Advice?
I've gotten really depressed. Tackling my own issues while healing was something that I thought was a lot easier than what I had in mind. During this time I managed to fail most of my courses, gain weight, focused on dating apps and going back to ex gfs, isolating myself and just feeling miserable everyday. I've started getting help, but i'd be lying if i felt 100% optimistic. any help? any advice? I feel so alone it scares me. and of course, i still miss her :/
Things have slowly gotten better... new quarter, talked to advisors, friends and teachers... still a long road but i'm getting there :/