She moved to where he lives and yada yada you get the picture.
So the whole thing destroyed me and took me down to an absolute low that I finally pulled myself out of. I got into powerlifting and bodybuilding and working my rear off for my nursing degree and practiced no contact. She messaged me in April of this year and I told her I don't want to talk and then she hit me up on my birthday which I said thanks to and that was it. Now today she hits me up with "I really miss you :( I hope you are doing well"
My problem is I thought I was over her, but instead of being mean and shutting her down like I wish I could I find myself still deeply caring for her. I don't really know what to do or how to respond. What makes this worse is there was a shooting at my university today and that with this email on top is just not putting me in a place where I can deal with the emotions. What do you all think of this and how should I deal with it?