He broke up with me because overall I was a mean girlfriend. I caused fights often over nothing. I put a lot of pressure on him to be the ‘perfect boyfriend’, when he was already a great one (minus the lack of communication). I took advantage of the fact that he wanted to spend his life with me, because I figured he was too good to be true, which ultimately led to me pushing him away. He is crazy for sticking around so long, I really appreciate that he believed I would change overnight.
Since the break up I’ve been changing myself so I can be a better person. I realize that I can’t expect people to want to spend their life with me if I’m manipulative and mean. I can honestly say this break up was a reality check for me, and that I’m grateful he did it so that I can see I need to change. I’m obviously upset he broke up with me, but he’s right for showing me he won’t put up with me causing fights all the time. I’ve been working on my own happiness, trying to get my life together, etc.
Now, the confusing part is that he still acts as if were dating. For the last month or so he would sleep in my bed with me, but I decided to stop that this week. If we’re not dating we can’t act like it. He’s very flirty with me, he touches me (pats on the shoulder, rubbing my back, touching my leg, etc.), is even becoming better at communicating with me (if he says something mean that’s meant to be a joke he’ll apologize for it), and he’s just been changing a lot too. In a good way.