I suppose its a rhetorical question really.. and needed somewhere to vent it... Sure there will be helpful comments and stupid ones too.. ;-)
But.. like with any of the questions here.. none of you know the detail behind a question, so its all rather subjective...
11 months on from breaking my heart.. (and I really mean I was so messed up and crippled by her)..
She still keeps appearing in my head..
the unanswered questions I have...
The deceit and lies she told me and even now I am finding out things without even looking.. (Honestly.. I really am not looking)
Waking in a cold sweat when my memory throws something up..
We have no contact, I don't want contact, she can die for all I care.. Really.. if she stepped in front of me I would walk straight past without a second glance..
Mostly its better.. mostly I don't even think of her..
Mostly if she does "come to me" I feel nothing.. But sometimes the anger swells... the paranoia takes over...
I think its the lies and deceit that was delivered to me and that I believed in her absolutely.. and she betrayed me.. that's the issue...
Is it just time? Do I just have to keep waiting for it to fade away..
I just can't believe anyone could treat me so badly...
Ridiculously, my spouse and I are better friends because of that monster... no, we are not together (separated), but we are good friends... That's quite crazy I suppose...
My landlord where i started my new business said to me...
"Go take a massive dump and when you flush it away, say goodbye as it dissapears"
A bit crass perhaps.. But after 3 of them.. Its was all a lot better.. Ha ha ha..
Most Helpful Girl
What you felt for her was true love and that will never go away. Time will make it easier but it never goes away. What will happen is that we learn that the time it took for the situation to get to where it did we won't allow from another individual and it makes it easier to cut that person loose. Once you do find someone else that you can trust and fall for fully all the rest will feel like a dream. I truly know what you are feeling I'm dealing with the same thing and time is seeming like its standing still.1
Most Helpful Guy
11 month and u still want answers! It's late and u just wasting ur time and ur energy and u will feel anger while she's laughing
I dont know if u need more time bcoz everyone different
But if u find new girl with good personality u will forget about ur ex , even uf u didbt forget at least the past will hurt u less
and u will focus with the new girl
And dont look for answers with bitch bcoz she will make illusion answers these type of girl will never give u answers they will make it worst if u ask again n again
Find new girl and dont expect the new girl same ur ex to start good realitionship