Most Helpful Girl
It's apparent, even with a new year here, dear, that you haven't found closure to lock the past ghost in the Closure closet and with this skeleton that Obviously is still rattling your own chains some You-------Have not let go.
You need to do some serious soul searching of Why you have not been able to "Let go" of Him or the fact that he is still floating around in your head and in your heart. If you are having Any sort of Constant Contact with him, even if it is to check up on on Any media site that you both used to be on together, you Need desperately to Delete This, Block him from your cell, Block him from your life and start the new year off on the Right foot so it doesn't go into a Fifth year.
It has been going on way too long. It's clear that you both are Not going to get back together, that you Both are not even friends till the end and it is even more Crystal clear that you cannot continue down the path you are going because with every year you make him part of your life, is one more nail for your own coffin that He is allowed to take away from your own.
End this madness, Delete, Block whatever it takes and if you have to, find a friend or a family member to help you along here. You need to start focusing on you Today and go out and begin your beguine of mingling and meet some new friends and begin a new life with no strife of... yesterday.
Good luck, blessings for 2015. xx