I just found out from one of my friends that he is going back to Iraq at the end of April. He was previously in the Army and I'm not sure why he's going back or what he's going back for. Anyways, could that be a reason I was pushed away?
When I asked him if he had feelings for me (before knowing about the deployment), his response was, "Not really." Everyone knew better than that because it was so obvious that he did have feelings, I guess I wanted validation and when I got that response from him, it broke my heart. Some are saying, he's pushing me away because he needs space, others are saying that the army thing puts everything into perspective and it all makes sense now, and some are saying, "you didn't give it up so he moved on."
Before he decided to quit talking to me, he told me that he was interested in me. He told me he thought I was beautiful and that he catches himself looking forward to talk to me. All of that is done now. We don't talk at all and it's eating me alive. I started falling for him and I can do nothing about it, except to accept it. I've tried communicating with him since and he's shut me down. I guess I just want a male perspective since most of my circle is girls. Lol