So this is long. I'm sorry. I just need help and am too messed up to try dating anyone and there's a girl I like but I'm having problems moving on. So I've only been in three relationships, the first one was good. She and I had fun no sex or anything and we were good together, but we did try some sexually stuff and found out we didn't like each other like that and just became friends. My second one was bad. She was very into sex and tried to get me to have it with her but I didn't love her so I kept saying no. It went on for awhile before she got onto Facebook and made fun of me being stupid (I have dyslexia so I can get sensitive about that stuff, she knew this and used it to hurt me) I got a lot of hate from everyone she knew, she told them that I forced myself on her and other stuff, even told him she'd call the cops. I started to hurt myself then, I hated me. I even tried to kill myself but it didn't work. Then there was number 3. I loved her with all my heart, she was the first woman I had sex with and the person I thought I'd spend my life with. But then things got bad for no reason. She started to ignore me and spend less time with me, she would talk to other guys and lie about it. She called her ex who she told me was abusive and a pot head. She lied about a lot. Then she broke up with me for being controlling because I told her I wasn't ok with her talking to guys she felt she had to hide from me. After she broke up with me she told everyone she knew, and posted on imgur a thing saying I've been hacking into her email and phone. Neither of which I've done. She also started to ask random guys for dick pics. I've completely blocked her.
Most Helpful Girl
Ahhhh... Forget the girls you need to love yourself. And know nobody is worth taking away your own life. If you loved yourself I think it'd be easier to get through all this as well as you need to start with someone new, after you get through to yourself. You can do this by going gym, eating healthy, go out more and enjoy friends' company.