I was pretty much a loner throughout high school, I got bullied and ostracized for being different from the overwhelmingly huge crowd. I was also bullied because I was a latebloomer.
My grandpa died all of a sudden in 2012 when I was 16 and I spent 6 weeks in bed crying because of this. And there was this girl I was madly in love with who however left me for an other guy. She was like poison for me, she totally destroyed my psyche then.
Then I got very depressed for about 2 years.
I was able to recover from this bad depression thanks to therapeutical help.
It's been about 1 year since my recovery.
And now I'm having those dreams about death. I turned 19 last year in October and I realized that life won't last forever and that my life hasn't been treating me well so far. I come from an upper-middle class family with few issues.
Why am I having those terrible dreams all the time?
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Don't think about the death literally, your brain is basically using metaphors to tell you something. Dreams usually symbolise things subconsciously that are happening currently, not many years ago unless it's obvious.
It could all be purely because you were thinking about life not lasting forever recently, so now death is on your mind. Maybe you feel a part of you has died since turning 19, possibly your childhood or you've subconsciously put something bad behind you. The dreams should subside eventually.