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I knew I loved you but I took you all for granted because of my stupid fantasies and fear of rejection. It's almost as though I believed it too good to be true. I was on my own for too long and had and will always have a wild imagination. I did what I did just to really see if there was someone else out there like you that would love me for me, I lived in a fantasy world. Nobody would or could ever love me like you did. And your right, as good as I was to you, I was never one hundred percent true or devoted. I didn't feel like I was lying, I looked at it like I was withholding the truth. I never gave you all of me. You loved me for me. Sorry for doubting you. I would say one thing and do the other. Sorry for not believing in what really mattered. I will always love you. I'm sorry for not giving it my all. I am learning now how to accept this situation and take it for what it is. I hope and pray that I learn from this. I risked it all but screwed it up and got hurt because of my own selfishness and desire to be secretive. Next time I'll devote all of me to the next right woman that comes along. God does everything for a reason. He took me out of your life for a reason. He knows you deserve better than me. See you in my dreams baby girl. I wish you happiness and joy.