Long story short, I still love him. I dont believe Im in love anymore but times like these confuse me. I want him to remain a part of my life but loving him makes it hard. I almost dont want him here at all if I can't have him.
I dont have a facebook but I still check his. He ran into my little sis one day (which was crazy) &that night he posted, "the things you love never leave you. people aren't things" and a couple of nights ago he started posting madd love songs.
- Voyage to Atlantis and Footsteps in the Dark by The Isley Brothers
- Working My Way Back by The Spinners
- My First Love by Avant&KeKe Wyatt
- I Need Your Company by Michael Kiwanuka
I "drunk emailed" him the other night, just asking if he was up bc I knew he'd call me but 5 mins later I sent another saying he didn't have to respond. The next night, around 3:30am he emailed me the same thing, "you awake?" but without the backtrack. I know he knew if I was up, we wouldve ended up on the phone for hours.
Anway, Im struggling with remaining in contact with him or not. I want to stop talking to him bc I need to move on. I can believe those songs were for me but I wouldn't know about them if I werent creeping. I've told him that I dont like the monthly contact bc it doesn't make sense, he thinks Im overreacting bc "he's the same way with his mom". I would stop talking to him now but his little sis is graduating next month and I dont want there to be awkward tension b/t us so I was thinking about doing it afterward.
I guess Im just venting. there's so much more, like he had a rebound but I don't know if they're still involved. That makes me stomach turn&makes me wanna just stop talking to him but, we're on okay terms right now. I hate sounding like this.
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Staying in touch with an ex like this makes moving forward so much harder to do , whether it's the holding out hope of reconciling your differences or just can't let it go. If you did meet someone new dragging the past around would put undue stress on the new relationship. I have never stayed in contact with an ex ( I never had any kids so that was easy to avoid them ) . Ex's are ex's for a reason , and that's why I left them in my past