Most Helpful Girl
You are Not living, Only existing and allowing this Loser to have the upper hand with your heart and in your mind.
Time to end the madness and begin your own beguine of taking your life back. You know what he has done to you and as of now, is still ruining your life and putting a huge monkey wrench into Any chance for another romance.
If you are still in contact with him or are able to see any media sites he is on, block him from there and keep him at arm's length and out of harm's way once and for all.
You need to do some serious soul searching of what Hoops this clown put you through and that he broke it off with you and How he even Did this. I find him rude and crude and a clown with no class and someone whom you can never count on in life except to always let you down and... just continue to break your heart. You can no longer ever trust him.
When you have convinced yourself he is this rotten egg, you will be able to slowly forget and move on and learn that you are no longer going to be there with egg all over your face anymore.
Good luck. xx0