i I would like to start of by asking you guys not to to judge me. Min being very honest and I really do need help.
so me and my ex have been in an on and off relationship for the past two years. Throughout our time, I gained access to all his social media and his email account/web history. He knew I had his information but never got angry that I would lurk. I know this is very unhealthy in a relationship, but I never trusted him.
well now it's been about two weeks since we've broken up and I find myself checking EVERYTHING several times a day. I can see what I looks up, such as "fun things to do in Maryland" or "unique places to eat in Maryland." I can't help but think he's moved on and now he's dating someone new, trying to do new things with them. He was never the explorative type lol.
Anyways, I want to stop. But at the same time it hurts so much less that it did a couple weeks ago. I'm not sure but I feel like this is my creepy coping mechanism. I just don't want to be like this forever. Why hasn't he changed any of his passwords knowing I have access to everything? It's so annoying.
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Although for some reason of the season here, dear, you found you 'Never trusted him,' you stayed with this relationship to the very end and even now, you cannot let go of the skeletons in the cozy closet because you Still-------Lurk.
You have this obsession with him that you can't seem to cut loose. He has obviously moved on and maybe with knowing you know what you do about 'His passwords,' he deliberately leaves them so you can find your closure to close His chapter and move on yourself.
Block him if all possible so you can put this chapter in your own life behind you. It's not just 'Annoying,' I am sure but... Frustrating as well, I can tell, where it's always rattling your chains by having these... gains.
Good luck. xx0