Most Helpful Guy
Have you been in contact with him since? Has he contacted you?
If not you really have to force it all out and work on yourself.
Most Helpful Girl
He Obviously was your First Love, Blondygirl1993, and with this... These are ther hardest to forget. It's difficult to even lick your war wounds or focus on Anything or Anyone.
If you haven't done this already, take my advice here, dear. Block him from any Media sites you may still be able to keep track of him on. It will be a First step in the Right direction, by making baby steps, in Not knowing what he is doing or even with whom.
It's not easy, I know all about this. I broke it off with My First love as a teenager in love and it took me seven Long years, although I dated and compared all to him, and when God finally gave me closure, I realized... I didn't love him the same anymore and could Finally move on.
I wasn't 'Normal' for a long time, but tried to live a Normal life of just pushing on. Time does heal all wounds eventually but it's You who has to also help your own self because it's You... Who really only counts now and No one is going to be able to heal your heart unless you make some effort to begin a new beguine.
Good luck. xx