I'm former military. I was in the police academy at the time.. lost one of my good friends. Was filing bankruptcy was absolutely broke. My girlfriend broke up with me a week later i failed my test at the academy.. I tried to her back. I couldn't sleep I couldn't function.. I couldn't focus. My life had literally fell apart in front of me. Was working for a temp agency doing random odd jobs. Again I couldn't sleep. I was a wreck. Last week I took some vicodin and Xanax just to calm me down.. had one bullet in my gun and I reminisced on the good parts of my life sitting there for a good hour. I had planned to kill myself there. Someone saw me and called the police. I didn't want to end up on the news. I didn't want a young cop to have to take a life I wouldn't want to put anyone through that. Anyways I got locked in a nut house for a couple days and now I'm back home. I know people are talking and I know she probabaly knows at this point. Obviously I'm unfit to be a cop I have no idea what to do at this point. I wish my woman was in my life again. I don't know how she would take this news. How ex girlfriend would. I hatw to be precieve as weak.
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Just worry about getting yourself together and moving on with your life. First of all there's more to life then what job you do, so if you can't be a cop find another passion and if you have no passion for work then just work a job to pay your bills and have a life outside of your job, it's all not a big deal, it's just work lol. As far as your ex goes, she left you, she obviously wasn't happy so let her move on and you move on too, it sucks missing someone but you're obviously not mentally ready for a woman right now anyway, so fix yourself first and get your head clear first. Stop worrying about what other people think of you, we all go through shit and do dumb shit in life, stop seeing yourself as weak and just focus on getting better, don't put any unneeded pressure on yourself.2