Most Helpful Girl
Just worry about getting yourself together and moving on with your life. First of all there's more to life then what job you do, so if you can't be a cop find another passion and if you have no passion for work then just work a job to pay your bills and have a life outside of your job, it's all not a big deal, it's just work lol. As far as your ex goes, she left you, she obviously wasn't happy so let her move on and you move on too, it sucks missing someone but you're obviously not mentally ready for a woman right now anyway, so fix yourself first and get your head clear first. Stop worrying about what other people think of you, we all go through shit and do dumb shit in life, stop seeing yourself as weak and just focus on getting better, don't put any unneeded pressure on yourself.
Most Helpful Guy
I've had a massive down patch, similar side effects.
And like a fog, one day something clicked and it all slowly started to lift
Hang in there, you find out a lot about yourself when your at your lowest point.
Best of luck mate