But apparently that's never going to happen because he doesn't even talk to me and I just feel like an idiot for even thinking he ever would.
So now what? I don't want what I had with him with anyone else ever. I just want things to go back to how they were. I want him. I don't need somone to hug me, I don't need someone to hold my hand... I need Phil... I need Phil's hugs, and Phil to hold my hand and I can't get him out of my mind or my heart, and honestly I don't want to because as long as he's there things are relatively ok. But I know there's going to be a day where he gets a new girlfriend, and I'm going to be devestated even though I shouldn't be. I know someone else is going to find him to be the most amazing person in their life, and I just don't think I'll be able to handle that. Because right now I can't handle being without him, and I cry almost every single day and I know that's not healthy to not be able to moe on like this but six months after we broke up I can't stand being without him... I don't know how to deal with this type of sadness and emptiness and hopelessness.
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there is no easy answer to this. All you can do is take it a day at a time, and focus on you and what you need to do and what you like to do. You are going to have to force things out of your mind and think about something else. Not easy, but can be done.