1- I feel like I was way too clingy and controlling. I shouldn't have always been finding problems to fix or pushed him to spend time with me. I'm not overly clingy as a person, but he's a really free spirited kind of guy... So even my average ness was probably too much for him. Despite I feel totally at fault and I feel that I could avoid my bad behaviours from before.
2- I feel like a lot of it was curiosity. He's never been with other people and all his friends are single. I think the grass probably looks greener on the other side and thus our problems weren't worth resolving when they could simply be dropped.
Im pretty upset, and I need time to think over it some more of course... But I just want him back. And if I still want him back after a month when I've done all my thinking, how do I go about doing so?
I know my chances are very small since 1-I'm the one who got left so he probably hates me.
2- he'll be travelling soon for a few months and probably wants to be single for that anyways. (He was never this type of guy before so I'm hesitant to believe it but it seems likely. I mean, why be chained down I guess?)
i I guess I'm just looking for any input! Has this ever happened to you? Have you ever left a girl and wanted her back? What was it like? Have you ever gotten back with an ex? Regretted a breakup? Broken up with someone because they were too type a?
Even random input is appreciated. And also: say you went for coffee or something with this ex later. What would you say to them? How can you say you're sorry for what you did or accept fault? If you even need to. How can you show interest or whatnot while you're in a friend setting like that? Is there any way I could make this work at all?
Feeling pretty alone. Any stories are appreciated.