Anyways I met a Girl online, but I must say, she was looking to meet someone who knew "Crystal". Now I knew what she meant and I also knew that another woman had asked me at a friends house fairly recently if I had ever done it and wanted some. So to this new woman I made a decision to actually go buy some of this stuff and then call this girl up and see why someone would be so upfront about it and her pictures had me quite aroused. Long story short, she is a nice woman, she loves me very much, she has been with me for 3 months, but so has this "Crystal". I no longer go to the gym, she is overly emotional. I may not be perfect, but I think I want to end the relationship and it is dawning on me that although I have great will power, I have put myself in a real jiffy.
But this isn't easy. I don't think I quite understand how badly I was hoping for a woman to finally come into my life, and in comes this one, and under circumstances I know cannot last. We did walk in a park last week and told ourselves we could live a life with out my new friend Crystal, a friend she has known much longer than I have and according to her at a very young age for a long duration before a recess and now recently again. But I have broken the agreement, and my test of her will to be the one to get upset and point out our agreement we made was to be taken seriously was not upheld as she also broke right back into this routine with this "Crystal".