Since then, I've moved back to my college town for my third year. It's only an hour from where our homes are. He was with with parents at the time because of bank issues, but he fixed that and decided to buy his own place... He decided to buy a town home in my college town. The past month he has been moving in, painting the place, buying furniture... And he always said it was because he believed in us and thought we could be great.
However... I see him for who he is now. Being away from him because I've been busy, I've seen the light I guess. It's sad really.. And confusing because I don't know how my feelings for him just completely disappeared. I feel more annoyed with him and like he honestly is like a nobody to me. I lost my v-card to him and he was my first real boyfriend... I thought I would have deeper feelings but they've vanished entirely. I fee nothing for him anymore. Mostly because he doesn't respect of value me really.. He has anger issues as well. He's very self centered and arrogant. Really, I don't know what I ever saw in him. I can't believe I'm typing this because a month ago I stood up for him in all parts of life.
i have not told him at all about these recent feelings. They've only gotten stronger the past 2 weeks. I've also kinda met someone else, and I realize that I never was in love with my current boyfriend.. I never adored him. I want to tell him this Sunday but I feel so guilty because he spent $140,000 on a house and has boughten his own place here because of me. If it wasn't for the house, I wouldn't feel guilty because I can't help what I feel. What do I tell him?