I took the offer and I'll admit it was painful because we were still close with none of the intimacy. After we had finished our exams we went out and I admitted if I had a second chance I would do things differently, she kissed me and it brought all sorts of confusion.
So as of late September I asked for space because I thought it was necessary thing to do because I couldn't stop thinking about her and the lines of friendship has blurred even more.
So earlier this week I wanted to talk to her and see how she was doing and she basically didn't want to and said she lived for me during the last months of our relationship and felt like an idiot asking to be friends. So she said in order to move on we shouldn't call or text each other until my birthday next year (6 months from now).
I was left confused because I don't really know what her reason for this is and don't even know if she cares for me that much the same way I do
I've gone on a few dates here and there and It just doesn't feel right because I feel like there's still something good between the two of us. I've never felt this way about someone and all I ever think about is being back together but what scares me is that we both done too much damage to ourselves to even repair what we have.
Cause I want her back not as a friend but even more? What should I do and how should I handle it?