Most Helpful Guy
It sounds you have a million things you want to say to him. Without telling him those thoughts, your mind will never be at ease... even years later, it may still eat away at you. I would list out all the things you want to say to him, and either call him up for a coffee or write him a letter. If I were you, I'd call him for coffee because it allows two-way dialogue.
Having closure in an important relationship is very important. I had a similar situation where my first girlfriend and I broke off a 7-year relationship very suddenly. I broke it off and quickly got interested in other things (career, business) and because my mind was occupied, I never felt that painful loss. I never called her after we broke up, and it wasn't until 2-3 years later, I started to wonder how she was, and whether she was angry at me for never calling to reconcile or talk after such a lengthy relationship.
It ate away at me for almost 10 years, and I would even have dreams that I'd bump into her and she would ignore me. It was a loose end that never got resolved in my life. One night, I had a very vivid dream that she and I were sitting together for coffee and we discussed everything I had on my mind... why we broke up, what happened, and that I always wanted her to be happy.
Even though it was a dream 10 years after the relationship, when I woke up, I felt a great burden lifted off my shoulders. I still think about it now, but it does not bother me like before.
Most Helpful Girl
Hi dear i read your comment and i know how you feel now because i have passed through this same way with my boyfriend and i was so depressed but am happy now we are back together today there are some advice i would have to give you to take and it will surely work out for you i want you to email me on my private email so we can talk better and tell you what to do. this is my email address mccartkatty@gmail. com will await your mail