LONG BUT PLEASE I NEED ADVICE
Me and my ex broke up a few days ago. It was my fault, I was lashing out a lot because I was unreasonably jealous and she said she needed space. We were going to see each other in a few weeks so naturally I freaked the fuck out, spammed texted her for forgivness and that I'd change. The last text I sent her was that I was going to give her space and that I was sorry for going overboard but she just said she was fed up and ended it. It wasn't messy, we went back and forth and I agreed with everything she said and didn't lash out.
I was going off at her more often in our last month because I couldn't get a job, had a lot of family problems and was drinking a lot. That and I hadn't slept a full night in fuck knows how long. I haven't said a word since the break up. I removed her from Facebook because I knew if I saw her face I might be tempted to beg again and she followed it up by blocking me entirely. She left me on snapchat but blocked me after she saw something I posted on my story (just me applying for another job, wasn't meant to be directed at her). She still has me on Instagram though and posted a picture of her and her friend smiling and happy saying she wouldn't have gotten through "the move" without her.
I'm not sure if she blocked my number. I'm afraid to see but I want to see her in a few weeks and will do anything to try and mend things. It was supposed to be the last time we saw each other before ending on a positive note. I got a job the other day, been getting a full nights rest and am planning on buying a truck soon. I want to tell her these things to show I'm changing and maybe she'll reconsider. I know most people say to wait a month but I don't have that kind of time. My advantage is that the closer we get to her coming home the more she'll be reminded that I'll be in the area and it might make her want to hear me out again.
All I want to say is "hey I'm sorry I didn't make things easy for you the past month. We were both stressed but I was pretty immature about it. I think your decision was good for both of us. When emotions run high logic runs low, you know? I got a job though! And I'm looking into buying a truck. Hope you and Max (her dog) are doing well!" either tomorrow or Sunday.
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Change doesn't happen over night you need to give it time. I can probably tell you she won't reconsider any time soon, but showing her that you're able to be okay, you don't depend on her and you want to be better for yourself and not just her goes a long way. Maybe don't text her for a while, if you guys are going to see each other in a few weeks then wait till then. I understand you want to share this good news with her but to her it may seem you're not doing it for yourself and infact doing it for her which can be uncomfortable.0