Before that I was pursuing too much because I felt I was losing her, I know I messed up by pursuing her but I didn't know better back then. But she treated me like crap and disrespected me a lot, but she's moving on so fast (she doesn't love me even tho she claims she does) and I really feel powerless and unloved, forgotten. She hit me up a couple of days ago but i ignored her text because she disrespected me in such a way last week I promised I'd never hit her up again because I think she's taking me for granted even after breaking up.
I've been working out and I got a job, but I feel desperate inside, its hard to concentrate.
I think she's dating someone else because she said a lot of hot guys hit on her at college (maybe she said to mess with me). I got my pride up but my self esteem is devastated because I love someone that doesn't even care how much damage she does to me.