I'm still deeply in love with him. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think about being back with him. It's been over 9 months and I'm still not over him after a 5 year relationship. At some point, we both argued almost everyday and he told me that he had fallen for someone else (a female friend) who he told me was like family to him. I was devastated. Almost killed myself because I didn't eat in a week. I went to the hospital and ate mush for weeks after that. I thought I was fat and ugly, why would he leave me? What did she have that I didn't? I lost a whopping 20 lbs. He tried to explain to me that I was beautiful and he still cared for me but we've ran our course and it was over.
Within weeks, he put photos online with his new girlfriend kissing and mentioning how he's the luckiest man alive. She met the family and they liked her. I felt like I was being replaced, like 5 years out of the window. I kept in touch with him but blocked him 2 months ago, dying to move on. I hooked up with another guy and we both seem to like eachother and he asked me to be his girlfriend. The sex was good and he made me laugh, so I was all in. This helped, but my ex still popped up in my mind. This guy and I haven't even gone out for 3 months yet and it's already going sour because of our communication.
Today, I saw my ex. He invited me to lunch just to brag about how he gave his new girlfriend a promise ring. I was devestated. Went in the bathroom to cry. He grabbed me by the hand and looked into my eyes and told me that he still loves me. He misses me and he still thinks about me. We went back to his house and made love. It wasn't planned but I didn't stop him. He told me that he loved me a million times, called me beautiful and even said that we'd be back together one day and I'll have his child. Each word was like a relief just to be disappointed in the end. At the end, he acted very distant, was quiet and told me that he do
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If he's willing to cheat on her, what makes you think he wouldn't cheat on you9THIS IS NOT RELEVANT ANYMORE
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I think love is a great thing, however he chose not to be with you, he chose to pick the other girl over you, of course you're going to be devastated, but he can see how torn you STILL are, knowing that he has you wrapped around his finger. You should've stopped before having sex because you just proved that he can easily have his way with you because you're thinking with your heart and not your mind. The more you try to force yourself to move on the harder it is, you have to take it day by day. SOMEONE else shouldn't be your reason for happiness, you have to be okay with being single and independent before you can get into another relationship. Why would you want to love someone who wants to make you envious, brags to you... has sex with you and still goes back to her? You are a lot stronger than you think, it's time you do stuff for you x2THIS IS NOT RELEVANT ANYMORE