Eight month relationship with the sweetest guy you could imagine. Then just more and more distance - we didn't see each other in three weeks - because he was busy. And I understood that for awhile, but then I didn't understand anymore and felt like he was wanting to break up with me, so I broke up with him.
First thing I say is I don't want to lose you. And he says "you're not losing me"... so now I'm just confused but as I explain to him how much I'd missed him and how I thought he was wanting to end our relationship he ends up saying "I think you love me more than I love you." But still that's not an explanation. There's no real reason there. It's impossible to measure that. I know he doesn't owe me an explanation. Nobody needs to explain themselves if they don't want to be in a relationship then fine. But in the same way, I think it's really cruel to be left wondering what the hell happened. We were really sweet together.
Now it's been nine months since we broke up. I am miserable. I miss him so much. And I can't go back and beg for closure but I can't stand not knowing what went wrong. I don't know how to move on from this sadness, all I know is I want to hug him and hold him and be in his life again so badly... I can't get him out of my mind and I don't want to.