Most Helpful Girl
I totally understand how you feel. I have been cheated on myself and it's one of the worst things you could go through.
People brush off the effects of cheating, but it does really impact a person. When I found out my then boyfriend was cheating on me, it really rattled me to my core. I still have problems sleeping through the night, and I feel like that is partly a reason why.
I also have trust issues since being cheated on. Like I am always suspicious that a person does not really like me, that they must be cheating on me or that they must not like me that much. Basically my brain says "everyone leaves, so why wouldn't this person leave too?". Which makes me really sad at times.
I know that there has to be someone out there who can be loyal and wants to be with me. But I haven't been lucky enough to find them yet.
Worst of all, is that my friend's do not understand at all. They are all married and met their partners really young (one met her's at 15!). So they have no idea what I am going through.
So I have no one to really talk about it with, which makes it really hard. If I try to tell them, they kind of act like I am just being overly dramatic.
The thing is, it's normal to feel cold and uncaring after this sort of thing happens. I kind of feel like I am being more cut-throat than I was before. If a guy does something which I don't feel comfortable with, there is no second chances, he is out!
The only thing I can suggest to you is to try and work on being in a better mental state. Do things that make you happy and try to find people who you trust and can talk to. Perhaps even seeking a professional therapist might also be helpful.
There are faithful people out there who will love you the way you deserve to be loved, the hard part is just finding them.
But what you are going through right now is totally normal and you are not a bad person for feeling the way you do.
Most Helpful Guy
Its normal. But the depression is the part you might want to skip as its a huge waste of time.
People become alcoholic in depression. And thats a waste of precious life.
So don't isolate yourself, go out and try different challenges. You never get to re-live even a single second.