'Hey I'm sorry for being like this. I just came home and even though I've had a good night I've been thinking about you all the time. I don't know what's wrong. And for some reason I ended up going home with a 60 year old woman who gave me a hug outside the door. I miss you. Right now I need to be with me. I'm not going to lie, I've never felt more loved. More appreciated by anyone in my life, if I could describe my dream guy it would be you. It is what it is. For now I need to be with my best friend, my cousin who you met and claire who is giving birth the 16th, it's too much going on. I am sorry and please don't think of me as a heartless person because I am not. You.. Are special to me. And I don't event want to continue this sentence cause it's too hard. Just know that no guy have ever meant this much to me, ever. And I have no intentions of meeting anyone right now. Not at all. You are the only one for me I'm sorry it was like this but do not think I care for someone else for me there is only you.'
Her cousin also has cancer who is pregnant just so you understand a little more. I don't know what to reply back? Or do I?