He says he wishes I were dead, that I'm a whore, a piece of trash, and that he hopes I'm struck down.
I feel like garbage. Am I really so terrible?
Most Helpful Guy
No you're not garbage if in totally honest not to sound rude but you actually seem like you have some sort of emotional issue which can be down to all sorts of things. Bullying at school , not enough attention from parents etc etc general life expectations not met you my dear needs SELF FULFILLMENT. Concentrate on you and your dreams no excuses just do them once you start to feel like you e accomplished the things you always wanted to do I think you may be happier with yourself. Don't rely on other guys , sex etc that isn't happiness. Also it's not friends with benefits it's a rebound. You was still emotionally invested in this previous guy it takes months to heal from any kind of break up. People use rebounds to block out the pain and loneliness of break ups but later find that the pain is there. As for your ex PEOPLE can change but I think he may also not be happy with him self so he needs to find self FULFILLMENT but not from a relationship. That would explain the name calling you need to become that kind of woman that he needs he needs to sort his shit out and respect you and then after you made him fight for you you might decide to give him the benefit of the doubt.
Most Helpful Girl
You are not a bad person.
You were doing what anybody who had been treated like that would have done.. Moved on and pieced yourself back together, or attempted to.
He sounds like a mind controlling manipulative piece of sh*t and you can and must do better.
God forbid you go back to something so toxic because my dear he will screw you up good and proper.
Get away from him for good and better yourself.
End the hold he has on you to heal and love yourself again.
Wishing you all the best