Should I keep trying or let things go?

Okay it is a long story, but in a nutshell...I was recently banned from another question and answer site whom I had been a member of for over a year. I made a fool of myself and created over 60 fake profiles harassing other members whom I wished to befriend. I know it all sounds so crazy but I thought if they were be harassed and I stepped in to defend them not only would they think higher of me but that it would also give us something to talk about. I said some very very vile and despicable things under these fake profiles and customer service ended up matching the the IP address of my main profiles to the others. My IP was banned, I was outed to the whole site, everyone from there literally thinks I am crazy and a liar and never wish to speak to me again. I tried apologizing but people wouldn’t even give me the time of the day. I ended up losing people I considered good friends and to make things worse I betrayed a guy I consider my best friend. He still doesn’t wish to speak to me because I lied to him about making the fake profiles several times and he was a moderator and backed me up, only compromising his position when customer service told him to ban any sign of me but he kept letting me go. I then made more trouble by going through a proxy server so they couldn’t identify my IP and trying to be a member on the site again. Customer service and another moderator who has an extreme dislike of me for several reasons repeatedly pulled any profile that even seemed like me as well. So now no one of there wishes to speak to me, I made a horrible mess of things, and they think I am some sicko because of the things I said under the fake profiles. I didn’t mean a word of it and never in a million years did it even cross my mind that I would actually get caught. So I guess my question is should I keep trying to apologize and get those friends back or just see it as something I totally messed up and move on? I really wish to receive their forgiveness but I mean do I really deserve it? Don’t worry I learned my lesson, I will never troll a site again.
Should I keep trying or let things go?
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