so my ex and i are still really good friends. he's the person i trust the most cause I've had some bad stuff happen to me. we dated for a while but then stopped. i tried to get him to go out with me again but he said we were over for good. earlier in the year he said when i was a few years older we might be able to try again. he's almost 5 years older than me. now he says to date other people and asked if i was ok being friends and i lied and said yes even though i love him. how do i get him to want me back for good?