I recently cut all connection with him.
Sometimes I think about him though and my heart hurts.
Most Helpful Guy
you won't change if you didn't win from your inside, accept what happened as a lesson to win and to live happy from outside.
look at the bright side... you finally realize people aren’t always what they seem to be. the positive thing that has happened is you’re no longer that naive and gullible person who believed everything others wanted them to believe. you finally begin to look beyond facades. you'll never be blind in love again.
make that pain gives you the hope to start all over again.
give yourself space to connect with your friends, take double shift at work or visit a patient child with gift to give etc. that will make you feel good about yourself.
Most Helpful Girl
If he's a compulsive, sociopathic fucktard I doubt your interest in him is truly "love", but likely fascination and infatuation. You may simply be tantalized by this bizarre, unfamiliar type of person and the fact that he's "broken", and love the idea of him falling for you. It's a romantic idea, but if he gives you no sort of affection back, I don't see how you could love him.
Remind yourself of all of the hurt he caused you. Relive every lie, every time he fucked around, and every time he just made you feel like shit. Live in that place in your head if you have to until you realize what a shithead he is. Then refuse to let him back into your life, worry about you and your happiness until he is noting more than a distant memory.