I love him so much.. somehow i worked to get back into relationship.
a month after this incident. , my ex suddenly told he likes another girl so he wants break up with me.. i knw this was absolute bullshit. he is a one woman man. somehow i tried to cut his bullshits. Finally he told he wanted a break up bc of our mum's happiness. ( he is Christian and i am Hindu girl) he said he caant marry me bc i am hindu girl which his mum will never accept. I was not in position to accept all these things.. just a month back i got him back in my life.. finally he suggested me.. sex is the only way for us not to get separated. he told love is an emotion and sex creates an unbreakable bond. besides he always wanted to have sex with me.. i was confused as hell. then he told me he would make his girl bestiee to talk to me as a councillor. i spoke with her. i literally told her all my feelings.. everything.. including sex part.. it came in flow.. i didn't think before sending it.. she got pissed off and yelled at him.. and he came and abused my family.. like calling them frauds etc..
a note about me : i got bullied. i overthink i get panic attacks.