Most Helpful Guy
My recommendation is to leave him. You should have long ago. If you do not yet want to, then go into couples counseling. If that does not work or he will not go, then back to leaving him.
Most Helpful Girl
Did you confront him?
First go talk and try not to cry as that may get in the way of clear communication.
And when you communicate don't hold things back. So if you have a question, ask. Don't assume the answer in your head and cry about it.
When one is sad, for some reason, they crave sad thoughts and wanna cry or something.