One of the biggest reasons we decided to end it was because after his mom died 3.5 years ago, his family started depending on him. That didn't hit him until he went back home & the whole situation really has pushed him into a depression. He can't pursue his dreams like he wants to and he keeps getting further and further into debt. He told me it's changing him for the worst and he doesn't want me to go through that with him. He told me once he moved out, got on the right track he would come back to me & that he wanted to be sure he was ready for me.
I am truly heart broken & I really do want him back. Over this small period of time of being seperated from each other I've seen the things I need to work on. After college he had to go back to reality of his life being in shambles & I didn't fully grasp the magnitude of the situation.
He feels like its his fault that we ended because of everything that he's been going through. Another problem for him was the fact that he has to live at home and when I come to see him I am in a house full of males (just his dad and brother). He told me he's not in a position to make me 100% comfortable & that bothers him. However, I've never resented him for his issues.
I don't want to rush him & I really do want to be with him. He is the love of my life. In a few months I will be moving back to the same city as him for my job. We had plans to live together once I came back but now we are broken up. How do I get him back? I have been giving him space and not contacting him and I have noticed he checks my snapchats everyday and puts up sad posts. I don't want to hold onto false hope.