I keep busy- with work, volunteering, and tagging long with acquaintances to new places. I keep a journal. I listen to angry music, sad music, singing wretchedly my heart and soul out in my room sometimes. I haven't cried since the first 2- 3 weeks following the break up. I felt empty. I still feel empty and a bit lonely. And to be 100% honest- miss sex. And the only person I had sex with was my ex, so I avoid thinking about it so as not to feel sad. I feel a bit lonely- odd since I'm surrounded by people that support me. I don't want to get into another relationship and potentially hurt someone; I want to be 100% ready to give it my all.
If I go out and have a one night stand- something totally out of character for me- will that help me to stop thinking about him- and what went wrong and all the ways it might have been my fault? Has this worked for anyone else? Or will it make things worse?