I've literally had to join an online community for help cause I'm sick of living like this it's taking over my life
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think of him like a dirty pad.. you wouldn't reuse a dirty pad or tampon, they are toxic, dirty and nasty and will make you sick, possibly kill you. yet those pads/tampons are a necessity just like the need to feel wanted, needed and loved. he was that type of pad/tampon that was your favorite but they discontinued it and you can't get it anymore so you tried reinserting him and got a reminder why you don't do that. throw him in the trash, don't stick him on a wall or on the mirror or on the stall door, definitely don't flush him again though. it sounds like you tried to flush him and everything just backed up and overflowed. throw him and his memory in the disposal unit meant for people like him. those memories never spoken about because they make you feel dirty, or are just too nasty. nothing to be afraid of because ultimately you are the one in control and he knows that. thus the physical abuse, he was attempting to show you he had the control when he knew that you really had it he just scared you off of using it.