Each time I think about it I get butterflies and I feel the need to vomit. I also have a cold or flu and my chest hurts pretty bad. Each time he crosses my mind my chest hurts even more. I tried talking to my bestie about it and she just tells me that him and I broke up 2 months ago and I should be over it already. So I'm trying to suppress my feelings about it but it's so hard. I haven't eaten in a day. I can't get myself to even drink without feeling it coming back up.
I feel like losing my mind. I want to just had myself off to a mental hospital. I don't know what to do. I'm falling into a depression or something and it's just the break up my car being broken not being able to have money to afford anything and not being able to get a job. It's so much pressure and it's my first time living on my own. My parents are an hour away. I just want to be with them but I have no way of getting there. I've called them once before and told them how I wanted to kill myself and my mom came up that weekend and brought me back home to be with the family. When she did at some point she went to the bathroom and I heard her crying because of me and my dad was really worried about me and I don't want them to think that I'm broken and can't handle life. I don't want to put anymore stress on their life.
What do I do?
Most Helpful Guy
The biggest first step is cutting all traces of him out of your life. Remove him from social media, remove him from your phone, clear your internet history so you can't "accidentally" find him, etc. Seriously. That all needs to be done. Second, you're going to hurt. That's part of life. You still have feelings for him which is why you feel sick when you think about it. The better thing to do is think about the bad times, the arguments, the things that were wrong instead. Focus on that.
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Most Helpful Girl
I'm sorry you have to go through this, but when my ex and I broke up I kept telling myself "a year from now none of this will have mattered." I know you're really hurting now, but only time heals. It's been 9 months for me and hey I feel so much better about myself. :) You'll get over it. there will always be someone better.